Thank you, folks, for not giving up on me! Since Friday, October 12th, Earthlink
has had a problem that wouldn't let websites update, and we had no way of explaining to you. If you have a friend who
was following this site, would you tell them that things are back to normal? I'd certainly appreicate it, as I hate
to think of losing any of you. Thank you! bt
three a.m., September 5th, 2012, and God has taken me into the awful world of Alzheimer's Disease...in a dream. I now
know the feeling, and I'll try here, to explain it. If I can. It may be that you can better understand what this
disease does to victims.
In this very realistic dream, I was driving, alone,
and suddenly came upon a beautiful lake, tucked among green hills. I've been all over our nation, and this was as lovely
as anywhere I've visited. The other side of the lake was in deep shadows, and I found myself asking how, or where I was,
and would "this side" of the lake would be in shadows like that as the day wore on.
Someone answered. I don't remember a person being there...but the voice said, "yes." I asked
where I was, and the voice said, "you're near St. Louis." I was in awe, and said, "Why, I thought I was
in another state! Where am I exactly?" But I didn't get an answer.
got out of the car and wandered around, and suddenly I was in a huge building, and people were milling around, so I did the
same, and I seemed to be looking for the front office, but I would find myself in a dead end, and would retrace my steps.
I seemed to ask others, exactly where I was, and what was this place, but didn't get answers from anyone. I remember thinking
I needed a map, so I could tell how to get to I-70, because then I could get my bearings. But I still couldn't seem to
ask anyone how to do this.
Then I realized that I had left my car, and had now
had no idea where it was. Then suddenly I was driving, and the thought came to me that I must be low on gasoline, but again,
I didn't seem to be aware that I could look at the meter on the car's dashboard, to see that.
And suddenly, I awoke. I was in my own bed, and had escaped! It was all a dream! And you can believe that
it was a relief, to be back among the living, so to speak! And you can't imagine the feeling of helplessness I had been
I realized that I needed to try to remember what the dream had
shown me, so I could let you know what it is to be in that state of being, so I immediately got up and have now written to
you about how it must feel to be alive, but totally lost to the world around me. I sincerely believe that God gave me this
picture, so I can sympathize with the dear people who have slipped into a world totally foreign to them.
Very often, I thank God that he has kept my mind clear, and now I know why. I advise you to do the same.
Be grateful that you know your name, and who, and where, you are!